Friday, March 29, 2013

Week 31

I snapped this picture trying on that skirt today, but decided against buying it. 

How far along:  31 weeks 

Sleep: 
Well for one i'm writing this post at three in the morning (Hawaii time) because I can't seem to sleep.  My son still likes to get very active around two in the morning and wake me up by roundhouse kicking my ribs and bouncing on my bladder.

Symptoms I have: 
Sore ribs, my son likes to kick and hang around the right underside of my ribs

I've been craving more unhealthy things lately. :( have to fight the urge

I'm finding it harder to suck down oxygen.  I can breathe fine and everything but it feels like I have to work so much harder to do so.

Still having the itchy belly, especially at night.  Not sure why its so much worse at night time but it really is.

Maternity clothes:
None.  As much as i'd love to buy stretchy clothes I keep telling myself that I really don't have very far to go and that I should just deal with it till than.

Cravings: 
Burrito.  Ice Cream.

Dimensions
39 inches around. 
Pre-pregnancy dimensions for my waist was 19 inches around.

Note: Doc said to watch the weight gain, I only have 5 lbs left of leeway between now and when I give birth.

Movement: 
Oh man he's very active.  I really love i though.  I love to feel his little body moving around inside me.  I've been enjoying the time I have lately to just sit down and talk to him.  My little mans a very good listener and sometimes I really do feel like he's trying to cheer me up from the inside.

Belly button: I'm an outie.  No stretch marks.  

Best moments of the week: 
This week was actually quite eventful for me.  There were a handful of good moments, like going to the car expo with my hubs.



My cousin coming over to do my toe nails



Stopping by the Kapolei house to visit my family

Meeting Shelbys new bundle of joy.

Going over my birth plan with my doctor and finding out that I can pretty much have the perfect birth that I want to have.

I treated myself to Starbucks (decaf of course) with the groupon that came out

Met up with some old friends at Victoria's baby shower

Got myself a few treats, like I ordered a diaper bag and mini flat iron (with a groupon and coupon)

But honestly, all in all this has been a really difficult week for me emotionally.  

Thing that need to get done:
Baby shower, but given the circumstances of this past week I really don't feel like planning it anymore.

Bri's wedding which is tomorrow

Pick up my check

Do nothing for Easter

Thoughts:

Emotionally i'm feeling drained, which all in all makes me want to crawl up into a hole and alienate myself.  However, I know from experience that this never ever helps anything but rather makes things worse.  I'm not really sure how to fix the errors and bumps in my life but I do know that i'm supposed to keep trudging along.  I'm going to make time this week to interact with people.

Also, I'm feeling quite lonely.  I spend a whole lot of time alone since i'm not working anymore and beyond that I'm just feeling emotionally and spiritually disconnected.

I'm finding that on this quest to motherhood, I'm looking back at my own upraising and finding that I miss my own mama terribly.  And my sister. I'm reminded about the importance of having a mama and how much love they surround you with from the moment you enter this world.  My mama would fight off a sea of monsters and hoards of lions for my sister and myself.

I know that this journey to build my own family with my husband is in every way just that, a journey with my husband but as I realize how much we've grown up I can't help but to look over my shoulder a little and miss the last chapters of my life a bit.

The book of my life is filled to the brim with wonderful memories and heart warming tales.

I'm discovering that as time goes on i'm finding less beauty in the monotony of the every day.

This last sentence, that is something that I am going to work on for life.  Finding the beauty in everything; things that seem mundane usually aren't because everything and everyone has a story.

I am feeling so lost right now.  

Friday, March 22, 2013

Week 30






Pictures are actually from a couple of days ago so technically 29 weeks 5 days.


How far along: 30 weeks 

Side Note:
We just came home from a little scare.  While I was at work today I noticed that I was spotting so I went into the ER to check it out and make sure that my little man is okay.  So far, it seems that everything is fine and they aren't sure why I was spotting.  But i'm not dilated at all and i'm not feeling contractions.  Baby is moving plenty and remains to be quite active.  All in all everything is alright for now even though I gave my husband and family a heart attack and a half.  We'll follow up with the doctor on Wed to make sure everything really is fine.  My son is already in the head down position on my pelvis.

They estimated his size today and said that he's about 2 lbs 15 oz.  I thought he'd be bigger by now but the docs says that he's in the healthy range so that's really all that matters.

Apparently I've reached the point where everyone agrees that it is in mine and baby's best interest to stop working.  I have no idea what i'm going to do with my free time though. I'm going to have to find things to do.

Sleep: 
I've been sleeping surprisingly well as of late with really only one bathroom break throughout the night.  Its been getting warmer lately though so I had to add a fan to our bedroom.

Maternity clothes: 
None.

Cravings: 
Apples.  I wish I would crave all healthy stuff but I've also been finding cookies/ice cream appealing as of late.

Dimensions
38 1/2 Inches. We're increasing with time. 

My pre-pregnancy dimensions for my waist was 19 inches around.  

Symptoms I have: 
Pain in the groin area. Nuff said.  Itchy belly! Actually it seems like I've been itchy everywhere but my belly is taking the brute force of everything.  Constipation.

Movement: 
I have a very playful hyper son hanging out in my belly.  When I had to put the EFM on my belly today I've come to the realization that he doesn't like the monitor at all.  He'll do anything really to squirm as far away from it as possible.  All in all i'm glad that I can feel him moving around so much.  I was worried when I saw the spotting so I grabbed a pastry thing ASAP and swallowed it down just to make sure that he would move around enough.  

Belly button: I'm an outie.  Grateful for the fact that I don't have any stretch marks. 

Best moments of the week: 
Spending time at night with my husband.  Chilling around our house dancing and letting baby listen to some music.  Listening to Alex make up rhymes for our son and for me.

Accomplishments:
Worked straight through the week Mon-Fri.  I've been pretty tired by the end of the day so I've really only been working and resting afterwards.

Thing that need to get done:
Plan the baby shower

Relax

Victoria/Kepa baby shower this weekend

Finish registering for baby shower

Friday, March 15, 2013

Week 29





How far along: 29 weeks 

Sleep: 
Haven't slept terribly well this week due to a mixture of bathroom runs, baby kicks and generally just feeling like crap from being sick. I can only sleep on my left side.  I have difficulty breathing lying down on any other side.  As of last night though, I slept impressively well.  My cold is finally beginning to subside.

Symptoms I have: 
I've been getting some serious pain under my ribs, especially on the right hand side.  I seriously feel like its constantly bruised and hurts even more when my son wants to kick me right up there.  

New thing I've noticed as well is that my gums have been getting more sensitive, sometimes they bleed when I brush my teeth now.  

Also, it hasn't helped that this week I've been getting sick; I have a sore throat and sore ears.  (Finally getting better as of today)

I've been finding it a little hard to breathe when I'm laying down.  I can only sleep on my left side cause I cannot breathe on my right side, back or stomach.

Round ligament stretching, or the stretching and painful pressure between the groin area and the thigh.

Itchy Belly. I have to use plenty of inner strength not to scratch it. :(

Maternity clothes:
None.  But I will buy one new work shirt because one of my regulars today gave me $30 specifically to go get me another shirt. :)

Cravings: 
Fruit Smoothies/Bubble Drinks.  Sweet Potato Haupia Pie, matter of fact I made two this week.

Dimensions
38 inches around.  I'm most def getting bigger and bigger.

Pre-pregnancy dimensions for my waist was 19 inches around.

Movement: 
My son is very active as usual.  He tends to be super active when I don't want him to be, but when Alex or I ask him to kick he tends to be very mellow.  

Belly button: I'm an outie.  No stretch marks.  

Best moments of the week: 
Laying down with Alex on the couch belly to belly and having baby kick him from my tummy to his. :)

Thing that need to get done:
Plan the baby shower down to a tee

Drop off library books, especially the overdue ones.

Friday, March 8, 2013

Week 28




How far along: 28 weeks 

Sleep: 
Can we say insomnia?  I'm now used to waking up multiple times throughout the night, but now I can't get BACK to sleep which is proving to be a real pain.  On a bright note though I wake up because baby is kicking so much and its kinda nice to lay down and just feel him move about in my belly, but it does make it hard to get up and go to work in the morning.

Maternity clothes:
None.  Just gonna rock the finish line with my regular clothes.

Cravings: 
Ice Cream (blizzards.) French Toast. PB&J w/milk. Bubble Drinks.

Dimensions
37 inches around.  I actually think that's slightly smaller than last week, not sure why.  Maybe I ate too much last time I measured.

Pre-pregnancy dimensions for my waist was 19 inches around.

Symptoms I have: 
A very big belly? I know that seems like a given but its now to the point where I don't even realize just how BIG I am.  From time to time i'll bump my belly into things just because I lack depth perception these days.  Heartburn at night.  Maybe its a TMI but the joint between my hip and inner thigh feels bruised, not sure if its stretching.

Movement: 
Baby's new thing this week is to punch out my belly button.  He has gone from flutter kicks to full on sumo kicks that bruise my ribs and such.  A neat thing for me this week is that I can see different body parts on my tummy when he moves around. 

Belly button: I'm an outie.  No stretch marks.  

Best moments of the week: 
Baby kicking really hard when Alex talks to him.  Hanging out with coworkers.  All in all though this week has been quite rough.  Radiator went out on my car so I can't drive it very far.  I still need to get it fixed for real but Alex fixed it temporarily.  I have to get paperwork in to the city and county regarding the car accident that happened 5 months ago.  Family friend work issues on top of everything.

Accomplishments:
Made a baby blanket

Temporarily fixed the car

Completed my birth plan

Set a date for the baby shower

Thing that need to get done:
Plan the baby shower down to a tee

Aunty Sherri's bday dinner tomorrow

Get Geico out of the way

Fix the car

Come up with money to fix the car


Friday, March 1, 2013

Week 27









How far along: 27 weeks 

Sleep: 
I slept surprisingly well last night.  In general however, my sleeping schedule kind of sucks.  My little man has just been kicking so much that it wakes me up.  

Maternity clothes: 
None. Debating whether I should buy a few more stretchy pants or what not.  I can still fit some of my jeans and such underneath my belly but its tight and it makes my poor baby uncomfortable.  Apparently my hips must've gotten bigger and widened out because I tried to pull my pre-pregnancy shorts over my hips and just could not do it.  Guess i'm not gonna go back to that 0-2 immediately.  That's alright though, my goal after pregnancy is to get back down to maybe a 3-4 instead.

Cravings: 
I finally got that bubble drink :)  Poi is my go to food as well. I crave brownies but that doesn't mean that I cave into the crave.  I wish I craved healthy food.  I usually end up eating healthy food over anything else but in my heart I'd def prefer to shove a twix in my face over a nutrigrain.

Dimensions
37 1/2 Inches (95 cm) around the biggest part of my belly. I currently weigh in at 130 lbs. Holy tolito, apparently i'm going to forgo the recommended amount of weight gain.  I wasn't supposed to surpass 135 at time of birth.  Seeing as to how i'm at 130 now and I have two and a half more months to go, looks like i'll be hitting the 140 mark at birth. 

I wish I thought to actually measure my belly prior to this point.  My pre-pregnancy dimensions for my waist was 19 inches around.  So WOW that's quite a big difference.

Symptoms I have: 
Heartburn.  I'm not sure if EVERYONE has heartburn in pregnancy but man oh man it just radiates down to my knees.  I eat small meals now, I don't eat anything past five in the evening and I've been straying away from fatty foods.  Why I still have the load of heartburn at night is beyond me.  

Movement: 
Oh my, he is a very active baby.  Two days ago was his most active day to date.  He literally did not stop moving for the entire day.  For the most part he was sumo kicking me rather than his usual little kicks.  

Belly button: I'm an outie.  Grateful for the fact that I don't have any stretch marks.  I don't quite appreciate that dark line though.

Best moments of the week: 
Evening walks with Alex through Ho'omaluhia

Random booty dancing moments :)

Accomplishments:
I did a whole lot of nothing this week.  I'm trying to get used to not working as much and I'm finding it really difficult to not get bored.  I don't want to use the ton of gas considering that it takes nearly a $100 to fill up the car.  Its difficult to find time with friends who are extremely busy.  I need crafty ideas to stay busy.  

Put up the curtains/curtain rods

I found this wonderful blog here.  I got a bread maker so I can start making us some homemade bread.

Looking forward to: 
I don't really know.  I am looking forward to another birthing class this weekend but all in all the monotony of having nothing to do is getting to me.  I need to find a hobby, friends (with time) or both.

Side notes:  
I feel like I've been pregnant forever.   I really want to meet my little man already and realizing that I have at least ten more weeks to go is kind of discouraging.  

My husband and I really really really wanted to have a home birth but decided that we couldn't drop an extra $3000 or so to deliver at home.  Needless to say when one of the couples in our birthing class announced that they were doing a home birth, we were a little jelly.  

More specifically an at home water birth was our dream. There are no hospitals/birthing centers or anything of the sort that offer a water birth here in Hawaii.    

Thing that need to get done:
I need to get on top of finding a doula

and also a pediatrician 

I wrote out my birth plan but I need to finalize everything on it

Pre-register at the hospital